Well prepared

Now i'm at lim sheng's house, i know it has been days since i last blogged. I've been enjoying all the food and times with my good friends this while and it has been a memorable one for me. Well, today is already saturday and i'm going to report on this coming wednesday and i'm well prepared for it. I really appreciate all the love and concerns from whoever who had showered on me during this very short period, it is indeed a memorable experience in life. Haha! Alright lets talk about what happened yesterday instead. My work ended at 10.30pm and came to lim sheng's house, met jason, acer, hazwan here and we slacked inside his cosy and hotel-like room. Thereafter, we ordered macdonalds delivery and enjoy the food. After eating, needless to say, smoking time and some of us went out to poolside and drink champagne. I had such a bad encounter yesterday, these few days, every now and then i would help my friend to manage his cleaning services at west coast market. I'm supposed to look after the workers and collect money from the stalls at 10.30pm every night and i would help to collect plates during the busy hour. When i was helping out yesterday, a family of indians wanted to give me a tips of 30 cent. WTF! It was damn insulting for me and i think they might think that i'm a china foreign worker there. I was really pissed off! But at least it is a way of earning, so its okay.
Forget it, know how to die and you'll know how to live !
HAHA!

Zouk tonight!

Haha! tonight will be a happening night with ykid and his bro and sis, hmm shall name it cousin night? Haha:) I think i'm lagging behind lessons and i need to buck up on my studies soon if everything goes on smoothly yea. Anyway, i just came back from english mid year oral and i reckon i did badly because my picture interpretation skill sucks :( Tomorrow is weeleong's and yongxiang's court and i'll be attending to see what is the outcome like so i can try to predict what will happen to me if i were to be charge in court. At least a little bit of preparation for myself. Laugh!
The very least i can do as a friend is to pray hard for them and hope that they will get a lighter sentence. I shall end here, pretty bored today as nothing unusual happened.
Below are some pictures that were taken by cassandra angkasa and some old pictures of my clique.
Like fierce only hehe
Warriors!Haha!
Candid by cassandra

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travelled on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live In
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of Death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one Picture)

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna Die alone without you here,
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, yeah, or kiss your lips again?
Whoah, so I never want to leave you, and the memories of Us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day, or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty, and cold without you here, too many people to Ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence you lost me, no chance for one more day

I stand here dreaming alone
Falling away from me, no chance to get back home

holding on to the glimpse of hope

I do appreciate all the things that my friends and brothers have done for me even though it is just as simple just spending time with me. Every morning i wake up, i told myself that the time remaining is getting shorter and shorter and i'll cherish every moments i have with my clique. Well, i'm praying for the best and also at the same time prepared for the worst outcome. Early in the morning, i went to school and approached principal, told her everything and hope that she will write me a good report to help me get off the hook. I felt much relieved when i knew that she is willing to help me. I went back home after school and headed down to that place with marble tiles. Anyway thanks wilyn for the book, i really appreciate it, loves.
Life is full of changes, this is just part and parcel of life, i will not give up although my dream has soured but i believe i'm still not at my wits end yet. Boon told me that day that people like us have to fall down and feel the pain before we can learn and i agreed, i always thought that i'm always on luck but not everyday is sunday yea :)
It's okay though, i'm prepared for any dreadful outcome so i'm enjoying my life to the max now.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe this time round is to wake me up for stronger challenges ahead in my life
enjoy life peeps! i'll try to update some pictures soon, stay tuned !

Entrance to the darkness

Hey everybody, i guessed it has been ages since i last blogged. Sad to say, i just came out of somewhere which is meant for dogs to live in and i'm going back real soon. Indeed, i was caught and my future is ruined, nothing remains the same anymore, people kept asking me why i did such thing but how many people really understand why i do this and fuck, this will result in a scar that will stick with me for the remaining part of my entire life. Nobody knows the difficulties that my family is having, nobody knows how hard my life is, that penny can really save my stomach from hunger for 3 days, or even more, but the consequences is unbearable. Frankly, can anyone tell me whether a 18 years old boy like me have the courage to face my family members anymore when i come out of prison. Yea, i told myself that that job will be my last job but i didn't expect it to turn out to be the turning point of my life. A last job, introduced by friend, lead me to darkness and living in spartan condition. A moment of folly or rather greediness, lead me to a life time of regret. Everyone said no matter the distance, we'll still be brothers or friends forever, but this is not the main issue, what i'm concerned about is my family members and you. You asked me what are the things that i can't let go? you know it yourself:)
I dare not think of my future, because i no longer have the future anymore, only darkness which i dare not dream about. May it be 1 and half years or 2 years, or even a few months with the cane, i'm not afraid of the loneliness but i'm just afraid of the mishap that might happen to you,my family members and all my brothers and friends outside. The canning process will take at most 2 weeks to heal up, nothing much to worry although i don't know whether will i get such a heavy sentence or not, but now the only thing i know is that my hard work for every test and exams has came to no end, everything became rubbish now! After prison, will there still be outside willing to employ someone like me? will there be any girls out there willing to have a husband who has scars on his butt? So can anyone tell me who am i after i come out later in life? everybody went on with their life, i'm like being trap inside a time machine and its my age that is ongoing. Afterall, i scold you and all in the past, i still care for you, you're the first person i called when i came out of lock up, hope you find your happiness outside yea. I know its totally impossible for you to be with me again because you won't want a useless boyfriend too :) yea haha, its okay, i don't ask for much, do write to me if i really go in alright dear. All my brothers, I really hope that everything is fine, i'm not trying to be pessimistic, but i have to prepare for the worst thats why i kept saying i will be going in. Who love to be sentenced to a fucking place facing four walls and drinking water from the toilet bowl? :( I AM REALLY A FOOOOOOL! FUCK IT
1/4/09 i'm reporting , hopes that people pray for me too, I'll be fine if not ..........................

Procrastination will lead to failure

Hey! I'm at lim sheng's house now, since last night. Yawn, its raining cats and dogs outside now and yet i need to go down to west coast. Kinda tired. Alright, lets talk about how was my day yesterday, Early morning 7am woke up and attended school for speech day and got my highest achiever's award for N level last year, Damn proud can! So elated when i went on stage :)
After that, headed down to vivo and then sentosa with jason tiong, woody, jia jun and yap.
Trip was bored because there aren't many girls yesterday! Haha! Enjoyed playing beach volleyball with them although we were defeated. After sentosa, went to town and met cassandra and lim sheng, cassandra seemed to have managed to slim down by a bit although no much difference.
Haha! LMAO!

Face is given by others yet it is you who got a choice to throw it away or not.
Money can be earned back easily, face and respect cannot be earned back so easily

Finally Sunshine after heavy downpour

Me and Cassandra's mum
Fuck face
Love this picture so much with jowee, you guys should know why :)
I'm not trying to act, they asked me to! Haha, no la(class outing)
Nice~ class outing
Hey! my internet was down for a couple of days and i can't blog, yea.
It was really a blessing, everyone was fine and everything ended. No more sorrows and worries, haha ! afterall, they mean alot to me and that was the reason why i was so sad that day.
Life is good now, still slacking and procrastinating, not yet to start for my revision and i know this is not the right attitude too :) I'm gonna change this attitude real soon, i trust myself!
Nothing much today, went to boon's camp to attend his P.O.P in the early morning with his mum and witnessed the discipline in the camp. Army life is not easy afterall :( i'm scare now because i'm joining the army soon, like 3 years later ! HAHA!
Ah boon was detained so he can only come out on monday, miss him, haha
After attending P.O.P, went home and slacked for the whole day, doing stupid stuff and talking nonsense sitting on that same old piece of marble tiles again -.-
Life is boring

Class BBQ last friday and Love ones

Brotherhood
Take a picture that will last longer
Hazwan!
Yingshao and maisie
Bright smile yea!Everything will be fine!

Unity is strength !

Can't bear to see

These few days had been one of the few bad moments of my life. Everything happened so sudden and everybody was taken aback. Everything seemed so fine the day before, planning where to go after this and that but ended up in such a situation whereby everybody got so worried and having insomnia. My heart sank as if it weigh thousands tons when i knew what happened and it seemed like thousands of needles piercing through my heart because i really can't take it. I really hope that this is a dream and i'm willing to wake up earlier to prevent everything from happening. I miss the days when we were playing blind mice, i miss the days when we had party, i miss the days when we joke around like nobody's business, i miss the day when we played dota and gamble but i know everything will be different from today onwards:( Inconsolable
I can't sleep tight every night, the memories that we had in the past kept wondering about in every corner of my brain, tears rolled down, heart seems like it is bleeding every second. Although things turned out the way we doesn't want it to be, we still have to live positively and everything will be fine. Brothers, trust me , i'll wait for you guys if it is really going to be a tradegy. I know all of you are putting on brave fronts and laughing so that the rest of us will not be worried but what we had is not just friendship, but brotherhood. I have tried very hard to put on a smile infront all of you but its time to cry out to make myself feel better.
Hope that things turn out well, Love and take care guys!
Too many things to do, yet too little time, no matter the distance, we'll be brothers forever , Right?!

misundstood

hey ladies and gentlemen!, haha now is 9am early in the morning and i'm sitting infront of my com like a junk kid because i've yet to shower. I didn't attend school because brother woke me up at 7.10 and i doubt i can make it to school by 7.20 so i continue sleeping. When i was in deep sleep, mum came home after working and start nagging like nobody's business and she didn't even get her facts right right. She didn't know how i feel when she said : "You didn't attend school every now and then, you think your father is the principal of the school?if you really don't feel like studying then go and work factory now!Everyday don't want to go school,don't know what you want!"
My heart broke, just feel like crying, your words really hurts me. From the way you nagged, you sound like you have a useless son who is nothing but a burden to you, but have you ever thought of the times when i got my achievements? Almost every class test i did well, but i didn't tell you, even if i tell you, you will say its not O level right!So whats the point of telling you about my monthly test results? You were not there whenever i do my homework, i did my homework in the afternoon, you woke up during the evening and just see me either slacking infront of the computer or i'm out. I don't need you to pamper me, but i really hope that you get your facts right first before scolding me. This year is my O level, I mugging hard, i don't need encouragement and the unwanted sarcarsm from you thanks. Trust me, we shall see :)

I do homework, you sleeping,
you wake up, saw me going out,
every now and then saw my cigarette on table,
didn't even compliment me for my achievements but only nag me on my mistakes , fuck it
yea perhaps i'm really just a junk kid that nobody wants

Head over heels in ...............

Hey guys! I'm in freaking good mood today! I just don't know what was the cause of this but i'm feeling really good. Today tuition was canceled due to some personal reason and i have been trying real hard to read as much as possible. Spent a splendid day swimming at jurong east complex with jason and acer, although the weather doesn't seem good in the early afternoon but it became sunny when we reached there. Spent the other half of my day slacking at jurong spring cc but came back home at 8plus. I have made up my mind, i shall organize BBQ to celebrate my 18th birthday! ohh, i can't wait for that day, anticipating! Actually wanted to type out notes for geography but was fatigued today so will be doing it tomorrow. I'm now waiting for feng rong to come over because i'm effing bored now looking at my moniter like a moron, listening to music and dancing on my chair. LOL :)
What jason told me was right, all of us are still complacent now and we should change our attitude towards studies. And frankly, what is the big deal here when you're good in your english? You're getting on my nerves because you exudes an air of arrogance in class and trying to show others that you are flamboyant in your english?come on, you're nothing but a pile of unwanted waste in the eye of waithong :)
Better wake up your idea and be humble.
Last but not least, manage your eye well, stop looking at unnecessary things :) as everybody knows it

As usual

Oh dear everyday is the same, slacking at the void deck and letting my butt rot on the marble tiles after school. This is how i spent my teenage years :( it is kind of sad for me though .
Haha, but what to do ? With the current pocket money of mine can bring me to nowhere except that place. I actually wanted to spend my coming birthday at one of the pub which daryl had introduced me but i discard that idea because i feel that i should organize a BBQ so that my female friends can join in the fun and its time to withdraw some cash from my savings although i promised myself that it is only for my bike license but i reckon its worth it this time round. I've failed myself because i promised esther that i'll read at least a quartar of the book(The Green Miles) but i have just started with it and i'm just reading page 60 :(Haha!
Well, its time to start packing up my books and worksheets to prepare a condusive enviroment for myself because its already march and its time to start revision!

Afterall, its my fault, this time round, it does'nt takes two hands to clap :)
I just can't stop myself from looking at that direction even though the feeling has faded. Perhaps it has became a habit of mine but certainly time is all that needed :)

Mesmerised by your smiles

Felt so empty today, went back home from school and took afternoon nap.
Everything was alright in school but i realised i hate geography this year.
Tracy was teaching at a pace of a hayabusa and i just cannot figure out what she is trying to do.
Life was tiring during every geography lesson but left with no choice :(
I got so irritated by the vibrations of my phone because woody kept calling me while i was sleeping. Woke up and went to have dinner with Quan Chun,Tiong and Woody at market.
After that we headed to JSCC to do abit of revision for POA. Yap came out of nowhere and joined us and we left our notes aside.LOL
Then acer came to my house to slack because he didn't wanted to go home as he hates his father like how i hate geography.
HAHA! alright i know i'm kinda lame.
Amy said that my blog looks like essay writing because of the correct sentence structure and all.I'm not using a camera phone now so i don't really get to upload pictures nowadays.
Anyway i really hope that the prize that i'll be getting on 14th march from the school will be a cheque prize rather than some stupid popular or harris bookstore voucher-.- because i really need cash for my 18th birthday on this coming 20th march.
Do wish me happy birthday !Haha!
Its time to turn in and tomorrow will be a better day :) [Hopefully]-.-
Looking forward to this friday Class BBQ~
A new lease of life free from worries and sorrows!

Mistakes done cannot be undone

A fun day out with germaine and limsheng to vivo.
Night event ended.
Surprisingly, the friend who always managed to cheer me up and console me whenever i was down was troubled and having difficulties to deal with his psychological problems.
Mistakes done in the past during the rebellious periods of teenage cannot be undone anymore, what we can do now is to amend for our mistakes and be success in whatever things that we do.
Be it academically, social life, jobs and etc.
People often judge us by our appearance and the way we present ourselves in public, not knowing how we feel even though we have tried our best to change for the best.
Right, its really stupid to ponder upon the past, but why people still choose to sit down in one corner of the room and do soul-searching instead of having fun outside with his/her cliques.
Friend, i know you're feeling down but but i do really want to see you bring your smiles out like how you did in the past. I've never seen your smiles after you went for army, maybe there were times but those were nothing compared to the memories of our past.
You're the one who stood by me when i need you the most , thanks for everything brother.
Do cheer up and look ahead of you instead of thinking about the mistakes that you've done.
I believe you're mature enough to know what you want in life and don't disappoint your parents.
Take care, i need to study now .......
Lastly smile like what you did in the past, seeing you in sorrows and tears, my heart really hurts