Class BBQ last friday and Love ones

Brotherhood
Take a picture that will last longer
Hazwan!
Yingshao and maisie
Bright smile yea!Everything will be fine!

Unity is strength !

Can't bear to see

These few days had been one of the few bad moments of my life. Everything happened so sudden and everybody was taken aback. Everything seemed so fine the day before, planning where to go after this and that but ended up in such a situation whereby everybody got so worried and having insomnia. My heart sank as if it weigh thousands tons when i knew what happened and it seemed like thousands of needles piercing through my heart because i really can't take it. I really hope that this is a dream and i'm willing to wake up earlier to prevent everything from happening. I miss the days when we were playing blind mice, i miss the days when we had party, i miss the days when we joke around like nobody's business, i miss the day when we played dota and gamble but i know everything will be different from today onwards:( Inconsolable
I can't sleep tight every night, the memories that we had in the past kept wondering about in every corner of my brain, tears rolled down, heart seems like it is bleeding every second. Although things turned out the way we doesn't want it to be, we still have to live positively and everything will be fine. Brothers, trust me , i'll wait for you guys if it is really going to be a tradegy. I know all of you are putting on brave fronts and laughing so that the rest of us will not be worried but what we had is not just friendship, but brotherhood. I have tried very hard to put on a smile infront all of you but its time to cry out to make myself feel better.
Hope that things turn out well, Love and take care guys!
Too many things to do, yet too little time, no matter the distance, we'll be brothers forever , Right?!

misundstood

hey ladies and gentlemen!, haha now is 9am early in the morning and i'm sitting infront of my com like a junk kid because i've yet to shower. I didn't attend school because brother woke me up at 7.10 and i doubt i can make it to school by 7.20 so i continue sleeping. When i was in deep sleep, mum came home after working and start nagging like nobody's business and she didn't even get her facts right right. She didn't know how i feel when she said : "You didn't attend school every now and then, you think your father is the principal of the school?if you really don't feel like studying then go and work factory now!Everyday don't want to go school,don't know what you want!"
My heart broke, just feel like crying, your words really hurts me. From the way you nagged, you sound like you have a useless son who is nothing but a burden to you, but have you ever thought of the times when i got my achievements? Almost every class test i did well, but i didn't tell you, even if i tell you, you will say its not O level right!So whats the point of telling you about my monthly test results? You were not there whenever i do my homework, i did my homework in the afternoon, you woke up during the evening and just see me either slacking infront of the computer or i'm out. I don't need you to pamper me, but i really hope that you get your facts right first before scolding me. This year is my O level, I mugging hard, i don't need encouragement and the unwanted sarcarsm from you thanks. Trust me, we shall see :)

I do homework, you sleeping,
you wake up, saw me going out,
every now and then saw my cigarette on table,
didn't even compliment me for my achievements but only nag me on my mistakes , fuck it
yea perhaps i'm really just a junk kid that nobody wants

Head over heels in ...............

Hey guys! I'm in freaking good mood today! I just don't know what was the cause of this but i'm feeling really good. Today tuition was canceled due to some personal reason and i have been trying real hard to read as much as possible. Spent a splendid day swimming at jurong east complex with jason and acer, although the weather doesn't seem good in the early afternoon but it became sunny when we reached there. Spent the other half of my day slacking at jurong spring cc but came back home at 8plus. I have made up my mind, i shall organize BBQ to celebrate my 18th birthday! ohh, i can't wait for that day, anticipating! Actually wanted to type out notes for geography but was fatigued today so will be doing it tomorrow. I'm now waiting for feng rong to come over because i'm effing bored now looking at my moniter like a moron, listening to music and dancing on my chair. LOL :)
What jason told me was right, all of us are still complacent now and we should change our attitude towards studies. And frankly, what is the big deal here when you're good in your english? You're getting on my nerves because you exudes an air of arrogance in class and trying to show others that you are flamboyant in your english?come on, you're nothing but a pile of unwanted waste in the eye of waithong :)
Better wake up your idea and be humble.
Last but not least, manage your eye well, stop looking at unnecessary things :) as everybody knows it

As usual

Oh dear everyday is the same, slacking at the void deck and letting my butt rot on the marble tiles after school. This is how i spent my teenage years :( it is kind of sad for me though .
Haha, but what to do ? With the current pocket money of mine can bring me to nowhere except that place. I actually wanted to spend my coming birthday at one of the pub which daryl had introduced me but i discard that idea because i feel that i should organize a BBQ so that my female friends can join in the fun and its time to withdraw some cash from my savings although i promised myself that it is only for my bike license but i reckon its worth it this time round. I've failed myself because i promised esther that i'll read at least a quartar of the book(The Green Miles) but i have just started with it and i'm just reading page 60 :(Haha!
Well, its time to start packing up my books and worksheets to prepare a condusive enviroment for myself because its already march and its time to start revision!

Afterall, its my fault, this time round, it does'nt takes two hands to clap :)
I just can't stop myself from looking at that direction even though the feeling has faded. Perhaps it has became a habit of mine but certainly time is all that needed :)

Mesmerised by your smiles

Felt so empty today, went back home from school and took afternoon nap.
Everything was alright in school but i realised i hate geography this year.
Tracy was teaching at a pace of a hayabusa and i just cannot figure out what she is trying to do.
Life was tiring during every geography lesson but left with no choice :(
I got so irritated by the vibrations of my phone because woody kept calling me while i was sleeping. Woke up and went to have dinner with Quan Chun,Tiong and Woody at market.
After that we headed to JSCC to do abit of revision for POA. Yap came out of nowhere and joined us and we left our notes aside.LOL
Then acer came to my house to slack because he didn't wanted to go home as he hates his father like how i hate geography.
HAHA! alright i know i'm kinda lame.
Amy said that my blog looks like essay writing because of the correct sentence structure and all.I'm not using a camera phone now so i don't really get to upload pictures nowadays.
Anyway i really hope that the prize that i'll be getting on 14th march from the school will be a cheque prize rather than some stupid popular or harris bookstore voucher-.- because i really need cash for my 18th birthday on this coming 20th march.
Do wish me happy birthday !Haha!
Its time to turn in and tomorrow will be a better day :) [Hopefully]-.-
Looking forward to this friday Class BBQ~
A new lease of life free from worries and sorrows!

Mistakes done cannot be undone

A fun day out with germaine and limsheng to vivo.
Night event ended.
Surprisingly, the friend who always managed to cheer me up and console me whenever i was down was troubled and having difficulties to deal with his psychological problems.
Mistakes done in the past during the rebellious periods of teenage cannot be undone anymore, what we can do now is to amend for our mistakes and be success in whatever things that we do.
Be it academically, social life, jobs and etc.
People often judge us by our appearance and the way we present ourselves in public, not knowing how we feel even though we have tried our best to change for the best.
Right, its really stupid to ponder upon the past, but why people still choose to sit down in one corner of the room and do soul-searching instead of having fun outside with his/her cliques.
Friend, i know you're feeling down but but i do really want to see you bring your smiles out like how you did in the past. I've never seen your smiles after you went for army, maybe there were times but those were nothing compared to the memories of our past.
You're the one who stood by me when i need you the most , thanks for everything brother.
Do cheer up and look ahead of you instead of thinking about the mistakes that you've done.
I believe you're mature enough to know what you want in life and don't disappoint your parents.
Take care, i need to study now .......
Lastly smile like what you did in the past, seeing you in sorrows and tears, my heart really hurts